Take a deep breath! I’m talking to myself here. It’s almost the end of 2008, and Tobias is leaving in mid-2009.

Ever since Adamus Saint-Germain foretold Tobias’ exact departure date of July 19, 2009, people have been asking how I felt about Tobias leaving. I’ve avoided thinking about it for the most part, but now the reality is starting to set in. It’s about seven more months now and the clock is ticking.

To be accurate, Tobias is not actually leaving. He’s in the process of incarnating back into the physical body, rejoining us again on Earth. He already has what he calls a “shell body” and a human signature that he calls Sam (not his real name). In July 2009 Sam will be 10 years old. For the record, the Crimson Circle will also be 10 years old next summer. The first public channeling took place on August 21, 1999. I don’t think this is a coincidence.

Sam lives somewhere in Oregon in the western United States. He is the only child of two college professor parents. According to Tobias, Sam was somewhat of an “accident” and his mentally-oriented parents are generally baffled by him. Tobias is deeply connected with Sam right now and continues to infuse his consciousness and energy into him. Tobias has announced that after July 19, 2009, he plans to devote himself to himself as Sam, and will not do public channels through me or anyone else. He’ll still be available for personal talks with Shaumbra as he does with so many right now, but he wants to shift the attention away from Tobias to Sam. He’s promised that he will one day meet and work with Shaumbra as Sam.

Tobias has been a regular part of my life since 1997 when he first spoke to me on an airplane. Even when I wasn’t in channel, I could still feel his presence. We talked nearly every day for the first few years, and at least several times a week after that. Sometimes the talks were deep and profound, covering subjects such as the nature of reality, enlightened consciousness and God. Other times the conversations were surprisingly pedestrian. Tobias’ last incarnation was over 2000 years ago, so he was fascinated with things we take for granted like cars, electricity, modern clothing, television, food and computers. It seemed that Tobias had as many questions for me about day-to-day life as I had for him about non-physical reality.

I don’t feel Tobias’ presence around me as much as I used to. I can tell he’s somewhat occupied with Sam, as well as working with Shaumbra who are challenged by this incredible shift into the New Energy era. He’s always available when I call on him, but unlike the past I don’t feel his presence on a daily basis.

During the channels and monthly Shouds, I used to really have to work to bring Tobias in on a deep level. Now it feels like he just slides in without a lot of fanfare or ritual on my part. I noticed a real difference in his energy during the channels about a year ago. It’s much more “human” than before. It’s much closer. And surprisingly he has a tone of emotion that wasn’t present in the past.

Sometimes I feel a bleed-though effect with Tobias and Sam. In other words, I can feel the interaction with those two, almost like I’m listening in on their relationship. It startles me at times because the first impulse is to think these are my own feelings and thoughts. Then I realize that I’m going multi-dimensional in my connection to Tobias and his human aspect Sam. Sometimes I hear myself saying something stupid or awkward, sounding like a nine-year old boy. Then I realize I’m just picking up on Sam, through Tobias. (And you thought it was easy being a channeler!)

I’ve noticed something interesting about Tobias as he makes his transition to Sam. He’s actually struggling with trying to keep the memory of who he really is. When each of us incarnated into human form the human consciousness tended to cause a fog of forgetfulness of our divine origins. And, as grand an angel as Tobias is, I can feel that this is affecting him as well. As Sam, he wants to be able to remember his full self, his reasons for coming to earth, and his connections to the Crimson Council and Shaumbra. But the “consciousness gravity” of earth is so strong that even Tobias is struggling to remain clear. During the actual channelings I connect with the pure Tobias energies so I don’t notice this effect while in the altered channeling state, but I can feel it when I’m aware of the Tobias/Sam consciousness.

Linda and I are preparing for the “home stretch” with Tobias. Our travels in the next eight months will take us to Japan, South Korea, Hawaii, Israel, Egypt, Switzerland, Spain, Australia, New Zealand, Romania, Brasil and the United States. The Midsummer New Energy Conference in Breckenridge, Colorado on July 19 will be my last public appearance with Tobias. It’s a bittersweet thought. On one hand I will dearly miss the close companionship and channelings I have done with Tobias. His shoes (or sandals) cannot be filled by any other being in the same way. On the other hand, I marvel to think that Tobias will be back here on Earth, joining us in our human journey.

I won’t fully know how I personally feel about Tobias’ departure/return until July 20, 2009. In the meantime, I can “feel” him returning to earth. It has provided me with fascinating insights into something all of us have experienced many times before, but have forgotten: What it’s like for an angel to become human. I look forward to sharing more of this adventure with Tobias with you in the coming months.