Sitting in the Inner Room of her New House is one of family, one we call Shaumbra. Her name is Catherine. Catherine is weeping as we visit her on this night. Catherine is very sad. She is not sure who she is. In her private moments Catherine has said to her Self and Spirit that it is time to go Home. She no longer feels a purpose or meaning in her life. Catherine is crying many tears, for she does not understand. She has asked Spirit over and over again for the answers, but she hears very little. The answers that do come are simply morsels, simply specks. They are not complete and full answers. The one we know as family, as Shaumbra, that we call Catherine has been battling what she has labeled as depression. She has gone to a medical doctor, and she has received pills to get over her depression. But dear friends, she found that even the pills could not take care of this deep feeling within her, this feeling of sadness.

Catherine cries and sobs on this night because she has tried many different things. She has tried many different ways of being and of acting and of being good and of doing the right thing. They have not seemed to work so well in her life. She does not understand, and she feels somewhat abandoned by Spirit. Oh, she knows within her that her own guides left within the past several years. She has lost a job that had meant much to her. She has replaced it with another that has not been nearly so meaningful. She lost what she thought was important in her daily work. Because of her thoughts and beliefs, some of her own family have shunned her. When they talk to her, it is gratuitous. It is not meaningful and loving as it used to be, and she does not understand this.

Lately Catherine has been physically depleted. Her energy is low, and she does not understand this, for she goes to ones who are facilitators. She goes to ones who help rebuild the energy of the human. It works for a short period of time, but it does not sustain itself over the period of weeks and months. She does not understand; therefore tears fall from her eyes. The one called Catherine, the one who is family, who is all of us, does not feel any sense of purpose, of going forward, or any strong desires. There are times when she thinks she could simply do nothing, not even read a book, not even watch television. Catherine thinks that all care and feeling have left her. She does not have the energy of hope as she used to.

Let us pause here for a moment with Catherine and talk of what is happening. Let us talk of what is happening for many of you at this time. As you move out of the old energy into the new, you let go of many things that were deeply ingrained within you. You let go of so many of the things that were near and dear to you. In doing this, it creates a void. It creates an emptiness. When Catherine, or you, go back to try to recapture what you knew before, to build upon that, to take what you are learning here in these classes, to take what you are learning as an emerging, divine human and apply these to the old, it does not work. The old and the new are like oil and water. It creates a space of great emptiness.

As we mentioned before, you are becoming more sensitive, physically, emotionally, and spiritually. But it has not all moved in yet. It is difficult for these new energies to move in while you are still holding onto the old. Oh, yes, indeed many of you have found yourself awakened at three in the morning, and some at four, wondering about who you are now, wondering about what it is that you are doing. You are awakening at these times for several reasons. For one, you have just completed a series of what you would call dreams, what we would call realities, of going back to this time before you came to Earth, to help resolve the energies of duality. You come back from these journeys with a feeling of nightmares, sometimes with the feelings of great stress. This wakes you up. There are times, too, when we specifically wake you up out of these experiences, for we know you need at least a few hours of rest before you go to work!

Dear friends, you wake up at three or four in the morning, thinking about your life as a human, wondering who you are, wondering which way to turn. For most of you the only resolution that you can find is to let go, to let go. We have heard you say, "I do not know which way to go. I do not know what to do next. I do not know any more what is right and what is wrong; therefore, I release and let go." Dear friends, this is indeed the appropriate thing. As you let go, as you release, you fall into the loving hands of who you truly are, of Spirit, of the God that you are. When you release, you do not fall into a pit of flames. You do not fall into an abyss, even though you fear that. You fall into the loving hands of the God that you are.

Making decisions in your life will be different. You are used to making decisions and choices each day. Generally you have had one of three choices. You could move left, move right, or not to move at all. Your decisions would be to go to the light, to go to the dark, or to stay right where you were. Your decisions would be to go forward or backward or not at all. Up to now your days have been filled with makings decision with these choices. Now there is a new way that is coming in into your life. As you let go, you will see it clearly, and you will wonder why you didn't see it before.

In the new energy the choices are not limited to light and dark and neutral; positive, neutral or negative; left, right or center. There is a new choice. Let us call it – ALL, A-L-L. You will be presented with yet another choice, and it will come from a place of knowingness. It will be a new type of choice, a new answer that surpasses the other ones. It will come in as a knowingness. You will not have the mental exercise of having to choose left, right, or center. This will come in from above. It will be ALL. It will be All that is. It will not feel like a choice to you. It will simply be a knowingness, a knowingness of divinity. You will then move in that direction. You will look back on your previous struggles about making choices as an old energy human. ALL will seem full and inclusive and complete. ALL will seem filled with love, whereas the other choices you previously had will seem to be only partial solutions.

There will be a new way of making decisions, but before that can occur, there is something else that will happen. There will be something else that comes into your life. We return now to Catherine who sits quietly sobbing, wondering what to do next, and where to go next. She is sitting at this very moment, wondering whether to turn left or right or to stay right where she is. She thinks those are the only options in her life. She has not seen ALL yet. She has not seen this glowing knowingness that sits above the other options. She has not glanced upwards. So to her life does indeed seem empty. It does indeed seem like a struggle and difficult, for she has not seen ALL.

Catherine gets up from her place in her Inner Room as frustrated or perhaps even more than when she walked in, for the answers have not been there. She was expecting and hoping and even praying that Spirit would manifest in front of her. She thought that perhaps if Spirit was not available, then perhaps, I, Tobias would come to her and give her the answers. (audience laughter) But as you know, dear friends, that is not appropriate.

Catherine gets up and she leaves her Inner Room. She wanders around her New House. She is amazed at how empty her New House is, considering how long she has been living there. Oh, indeed there is an oven. There are still trays filled with issues sitting on the counter in the kitchen. But in the other rooms there is not much furniture. Indeed there is a bright glow, but she has not connected with it yet. Indeed she has heard a vibration, particularly when she has truly let go. She has heard this hum, this quiet music, this vibration that I, Tobias have talked of, but she has not quite connected with it.

Catherine walks around her New House, rambling from room to room, asking Spirit to come with the answers. She asks her guides to please come back, even though she knows they have departed. She bargains with them. She promises to be a nicer to them and stop asking so many favors from them if they only come back into her energy. She rambles around her new house, feeling very sad and very alone. She decides to go outside for a long walk. Perhaps there is something outside the New House that she missed, something back in duality, in everyday life, back out on the streets. Perhaps she missed an important notice. Perhaps there is a human that has a message for her!

As she walks towards the front door, a sparkling catches the corner of her eye. Something catches Catherine’s attention and stops her in her tracks. She glances not to the left, or to the right, or even where her glance is currently focused. Instead, she glances past and through these things. She glances into a place called ALL. In this new dimension that now joins her human dimension, she sees something that she cannot believe she missed. It was there ever since she first entered her New House. On the table, in a vase, is a CRYSTAL ROSE.

We discussed this with you in a channeling eleven months ago. When you first entered your New House, there was but one thing inside, and it was a crystal rose. We told you the crystal rose bore a fruit. It produced a fruit, unlike any rose that you have known.

Catherine adjusted her gaze past the typical to the ALL. She then approached the rose, and a knowingness came over her. She was not struggling at this point with the question, "What should I do with this rose?" because she was looking to the ALL. She was looking beyond the obvious choices of: touch the rose, don't touch the rose, or do nothing. She looked to the ALL, and in this knowingness she knew what to do. She didn’t allow her human intellect to go through the regular process of duality, of struggling with choices. She intuitively knew it was time to take the fruit of the rose and to receive it, to place it in her mouth, to digest it, and to bring it within her being.

Dear friends, the fruit of the rose that is in your New House is the passion that exists in the new energy!