There was an angel by the name of Taylor. She has walked the Earth many, many lifetimes. In one lifetime Taylor was a warrior, a warrior for a greedy country, for a greedy kingdom. She cared not of the agenda. She simply wanted to be a warrior. She wanted to experience blood and battle. She wanted to experience duality and anger. She brought these experiences to her soul, and they remained there for a long, long time.

And in the next lifetime Taylor was a mother who was not so good to her children or her husband. She enjoyed the company of other men. She enjoyed being away from her family. She felt guilty for this, and it weighed heavy upon her. Yet she continued to do it, and in doing so caused much pain and difficulty for her children, and caused her husband to commit suicide, to leave. This was remembered by her soul and carried forth, put into her book of life.

In another lifetime Taylor was a businessman who ran a sweat shop. Taylor took advantage of young people and poor people as cheap labor. And Taylor did not care so much about them but cared only about her pocketbook, about her wealth. Taylor did not share this wealth with others. She did not give to charity but gave only to herself and wanted to build a monument to her immortality by gaining wealth. And this weighed heavy upon her soul and upon her being but she cared not and went forth.

In this lifetime, Taylor was a child of abusive parents. In her early teens she became an alcoholic. She continued this, drinking each day, lowering her vibrations to levels that it is even difficult for us to comprehend. She drank, and she went into darkness. Her vibrations were lowered, and she forgot what love was about. She did not have such a happy life. She blamed her parents. She blamed others that she worked with. Her drinking caused health problems. That created more bitterness within her.

Taylor is now in the Crimson Circle and no longer drinks, for along the way she read an inspirational book. She sat in meetings somewhat like this. She had others lend her a helping hand. She had others hug her and say that they loved her. She had others who took the time to help her understand that all of these feelings of guilt in her being needed to be released, needed to be let go of.

Now you see, we tell the story of Taylor on this day to help you understand, each of you. Indeed this is a true story. We tell this to you to help you understand something that is very important for you to look at in your own life and in the life of every other that you pass, to see it in your own eyes and in the eyes of everyone else. You see, Taylor chose these difficult lifetimes. She chose them a long time ago. She knew that Spirit needed someone to go to the lowest depths.

Somebody had to jump into this great pool of duality to explore the lowest and the deepest parts of it. Oh, it is easy to be one who simply puts your toe in and says, "I am filled with light for I do not sink. And I gather and collect the sunlight, and therefore I am special." It is difficult, dear friends, when you have taken the challenging path. You have jumped in deep when you agreed to become the alcoholic, to have the worst nightmares of nightmares, to have the most challenges.

And you thought this was just karma. You thought that you were paying debts to yourself. Dear friends, this doesn't even sound logical to pay debts to yourself. You and other Taylors that are family, that are Shaumbra, and that are deeply loved by everyone of us… you have chosen difficult experiences in your lifetimes to help explore the depths of light and dark. You have given much in service by doing these things. You have helped to reenact the energetic experiences from the edge of the first circle, and by doing so, helped Spirit to truly understand something new.

We know this will bring up many questions, theoretical questions, such as, "Is it right to kill another, for am I truly helping Spirit?" Dear friends, you, those who are in this group and reading this would never even be inclined to do this at this point. You have done enough of that in the past. Honor yourself for what you have done. Honor yourself for the difficult path that you have taken. And in particular, when you look into another's eyes and perhaps do not see the light that you see in your own now, remember that they are still helping to explore this grand thing called duality. There are two sides of it, a light and a dark, a positive and a negative. Someone has to explore the depths of both.

You who thinking of your child right now and the difficulty they are going through: understand what they are truly doing. That is compassion, when you can understand. Dear friends, what you are experiencing here on Earth is helping to understand and helping to define that experience that you had at the edge of creation. And you have done that well.

As we have mentioned before, many of the dreams that you have now, many of the terrors and the nightmares that are in your life do not relate to this lifetime. They do not even relate to other lifetimes. You wonder where these terrors come from? Dear friends, much that is coming to you now has to do with the experiences that you had before you left the first circle. You are experiencing these in another way – in your dreams – to help create the fabric of what we have call the second creation. This is your universe, your Earth, an extension of All That Is.

Now along the way Taylor gave up drinking, and Taylor came to learn that there was a divinity within her, but much of this was psychological. She did not understand it so well in her heart, for she still had guilt. Do you know she still had guilt about leaving the first creation? And then she had guilt about choosing these many lifetimes and many experiences of difficulty. She began to have a new wisdom as this butterfly was emerging from the cocoon.

Taylor still had problems in her life. She still had challenges. And she read much of the material from the Crimson Circle. She was beginning to understand how to accept all things. She was beginning to understand how to accept her human self, although for her this was very challenging. She felt the human part of her was something to be ashamed of. She did not yet understand that her humanness was divine, that her humanness gave so much to the universe. Taylor began standing in the divine moment, although they were difficult, and they were few and far between. She began taking a moment each day to stand in divinity. And she loved it dearly, and it felt so warm and golden. But then her guilt would get the best of her. She would feel she did not deserve this divine moment, and it would disappear.

But Taylor gave intent to learn and grow. She continued to have challenges in her life, ones of money and relationships and health and trust in herself. These were very difficult and there times when she cursed Spirit. There were times when she said she would walk away from this new energy Earth stuff because she didn't see it making a big difference in her life. There were times when she said, "This is all just words. It is like the other words of the other beliefs of the other people of Earth. It is all just words. It is all just a pacifier." There were times that she was very frustrated.

She was at a point in her life where she wanted to believe very deeply. She wanted to move to the next level, but she did not know how. And she became so confused and so lost and so upset, but more than anything else so betrayed, that one night she simply collapsed on the floor and began sobbing and said, "I can go on no further. I do not know what to do, Spirit. I have called on you for guidance. I have called on my angels. I have called on my guides, and I do not know what to do." Now Taylor did not read so well the words that said Spirit cannot do it for you, and your guides have departed.

There was something inside of her that was trying to come forth, trying to talk to her, but it couldn't when she was out of her divine moment. It couldn't when she was worried about all of these things. But when she broke down sobbing, something happened. Something came forth. It was like a voice, not from the outside, but from the inside. It came forth and talked to her, and it said to her, "I am grace. I am divine grace that exists within you. I will handle all things. I will balance all things. I will solve all things, but I come from within you, and my name is grace."

She lay there for a long time, feeling this energy of divine grace from within her being. And somehow it felt right. She hadn't turned over herself and her problems to some entity, to some image of God that she did not know or understand. She turned it over to the grace that came from within her being. From that day forward she began to understand. She began to understand the power of grace.

And that is what we will speak to you about tonight, the grace within you. But before we do, we will make one point. There was no accident and no mistake that earlier tonight the one that goes with the Wind (Wind Hughes, a guest speaker at the Crimson Circle meeting) discussed grace with you, discussed the fall from grace and the concepts that go with it. It is no mistake that a week ago we awoke Cauldre in his room and said, "We come to you tonight to speak of grace." And he said, "What? I do not understand." And we had a long talk, and we told him we would bring this out on this night.

We gave him an exercise that we will give you tonight also. Dear friends, understand that quite unlike what your books tell you and what other teachers tell you, there was never a fall from grace. There was never a Lucifer that was thrown out of heaven. These are all metaphors. You experienced the very edge of creation. You experienced something that you had never done before, and it was called duality. That sent you into the second creation. There was an energy that was needed to send you beyond the limits of creation. This duality, this friction created the energy that catapulted you into the second creation called Earth, into where you are right now. It was like feeling the power of the rockets exploding with so much force that it made you forget where you came from. But there was not a fall from grace. We look at it like it was a step from one into two, a step that was taken in love for Spirit and all of us who will follow behind you.

Now about this grace. We will take you into an exercise here with your permission, of course. We ask you to get comfortable, to adjust yourself.

Now with your permission those who gather here tonight will walk side-by-side with you through your new house. You have not been there so much lately! It is time to spend more time in your new house. It is a good place. You are busy running around the town and the neighborhood. You are not spending so much time in your new house!

So let us go back to there now. Let us go back there with the angels at your side, for they too love to explore this new place of yours. Let us walk in, and as we have said dear friends, there is very little here. For you create the walls. You create the space. You create the energy. Let us walk now through your new house.

Let us walk into the kitchen. Let us walk into the kitchen of your new house. We see many of you did not even know you had a kitchen here! You have spent no time! But this is such a grand place that you have built. You will be spending more time here now. Now in the kitchen of your new house, in the center of it, there is a very large, very beautiful, floor-to-ceiling (which can be very high in some cases)… there is a very large oven with a large windowed door. There is an inscription above the door, written in a type of shimmering gold lettering that reads, "Oven of Grace."

The Oven of Grace. Dear friends, this is a symbol, and it is also a reality for your own energy of grace. We ask each of you to think of a challenging situation that you have in your own personal life that does not involve other people. It is your own situation… whether it is one of abundance… whether it is one of general fear… whether it is one of health… whether it is one of loneliness. We ask you to take a moment here and think of a situation that has been challenging you lately, to think of something that symbolises the situation. If this is an abundance issue, the symbol could be your purse or checkbook or wallet. If it is about your health, the symbol could be a photograph or snapshot of you. Think now of a symbol that represents the challenging situation.

And yes, many of you already know what we're going to do here. We are going to ask you to approach the oven of grace with a large beautiful glass door, and the floor to ceiling mechanics. We are going to ask you to put this symbol of your challenge in that oven. Put it in there – yes, on the rack.

When you have placed this symbol in there, we ask you to close the door of the Oven of Grace. We ask you to say nothing, to have no intent, to say no words, to have no energy behind this, to say no prayer. We ask you now to look up to the left, and you will see a single button, the only button on your Oven of Grace. It says "START." We ask you to hit the start button now.

Now while this is cooking in your Oven of Grace – this challenging situation that you have – we will tell you a few things about this tool. First, when you initially begin working with this tool of grace in your life, use it only for yourself. Use it only for your own personal situations. Later on, but not too soon, you will learn to use it appropriately with other people in their situations. But for now this is only for you. It is about any issue that you have in your own life for yourself. If you are worried about a child, about a spouse, it is not the appropriate time to put their energy in here. It is only about yourself.

We ask you also to only put one issue, one challenge, one concept in at a time. We saw some of you trying to put everything in there! While you learn to use the Oven of Grace, only one the issue at a time. We also ask you to keep this in the Oven of Grace for a period of 24 hours of your time, for 24 hours. We also ask you to remember to get it out at the end of that time! When that issue is done cooking… when it is done being exposed to the energy of your divine grace, then you can put another one in. But one at a time and wait 24 hours, and then take it out.

Now while this concept may seem simple – perhaps even trite – we tell you now there is great power in it, for Lesson #4 in the Classroom of the New Spiritual Energy of Earth is to "Create in Grace." Lesson #4 – Create in Grace. This symbol of the oven is given to you today to help you understand how to work with the divine grace that comes from within. You will experience what happens when you put an issue into this Oven of Grace.

Let us return to Taylor. She put her purse in the Oven of Grace, for it represented the abundance issue she was struggling with at the time. And she put it in her oven without agenda. Without agenda, do you understand, dear friends? Oh, we know you have been used to praying, and you've been used to incantations and intent and agenda. These have been good, and they have been filled with love, and it has brought you to this point. But dear friends, we are going to a new place now. In the Oven of Grace there is no need for intent. It takes care of itself.

When Taylor put her purse in here without agenda and without asking for anything, do you know what happened? Her Oven of Grace allowed for the deep harmony of duality to create a new and blessed energy. Her Oven of Grace brought balance to her financial situation. Her Oven of Grace brought the energy of abundance into her life in an appropriate and balanced form.

Now it would have been difficult for Taylor to have tried to create a all of this in her mind. It would be like eating food and trying to mentally control how it is processed by your body. You simply eat food and allow it to be. That is "digestive grace." And in the same manner, dear friends, when you place something in your Oven of Grace, it takes care of itself. There is a natural balance. There is a natural fulfillment that takes place in this new energy.

About a week after Taylor put her purse in the Oven of Grace and allowed it to cook overnight, she lost her job. Don't you know!? And she wondered, as some of you may wonder, what was going on, but she also trusted in grace. She knew that her job was indeed a hindrance to her abundance. It kept her tied down and limited. It provided other experiences for her that were no longer appropriate, and one of those experiences that it provided was abundance limitation. So when she placed her pocketbook in the oven of grace, surely it changed her job.

While loosing her job initially brought fear to her, Taylor put that fear into the Oven of Grace. She allowed grace to handle her own fear of what she was going through. As she did this with new situation after new situation, she allowed divine grace to find the appropriate balance and resolution.

Dear friends, Taylor learned to trust herself. She was not turning her problems over to an angel or a guide or to Spirit. She was allowing the fulfillment within her own being. And indeed in this Lesson #4, "Create in Grace", you will also learn the beauty, the flow, the balance and the love of the grace that exists within you now. Up to now, you have not trusted in your divine grace. Also the energy of Earth has not been appropriate up to this time to truly utilise this energy. But now it is yours.

We have said before, work with these new tools. We can only bring you our insights, our wisdom. We can only mirror back your own group consciousness, but you must do the work. Take your challenging situations and put them in the Oven of Grace. And yes, for the question that just came up, you can put a situation in the oven repeatedly if you do not find resolution to it, and you are still concerned, you can put that in there again and again. If Taylor were to worry about her abundance issues, she could put her purse in again on another day. But as have said, one issue, one day.